I’m totally mortified. Ok so Thursday I have a date with the guy from the party last week. Except it wasn’t supposed to be a date. I really like him and want to hang out with him again but he’s reasonably older than I am so I thought I should try not to come on too strong. It’s too late for that now because today my roommate ran into him on their campus and told him I’m a nice girl, to treat me right and all kinds of patriarchal bullshit that guy friends always say to prospective boyfriends. Not that I’m mad at Trent he’s like the nicest guy and it’s pretty funny when you think about it. I guess I’m more worried that it a legitimate date now – as in all the stress that goes into a real date. I was freaking out enough when I thought it was only hanging out again. I am so going to mess it up and barf or something. We are going to this beach near UVic to drink wine and talk and stuff and I know it will be fun and totally not awful it’s just deceivingly intimidating right now.

Oh and today I decided that I will be staying in Victoria for spring session and maybe summer too. I had this talk with Beth last night and realized I had to figure out what would make me most happy right now. I even told my mom and she convinced my dad it was a good idea. Not that he could make me come back I just really prefer to keep him content as much as I can.

So no surgery today!!! I did have an ultrasound as well as a drug patch put inside me so I have a nice constant flow of painkillers and I know that I’m not broken on the inside. The bad news of course is that I have no idea what is wrong with me but we eliminated lots of stuff today. All around good news I think. I’m also not going out tonight because I don’t want to mix the meds with beer or get tired and stuff. Woot for being lame!

Holy shit I have had so much fun with Mel and Jeremy over the last few days. I can’t go into the incriminating details here but they are so rad- just take my word on it. Last night they stole a Buddha using a shopping cart, I ran into them on my way home at nearly two am.

That’s all today. I am so nervous about Thursday though. Oh and Trent is trying to convince me to move to Oak Bay into some house we haven't even seen yet.