virtue of the week consideration. Considering how your actions will effect other people.

Mathew

Xavier

Joel

those are my big three

all have lied

all have stood me up

none really do give a fuck about me (mathew may but only a little)

xavier proved we will not be friends once i moved out and that our friendship is ruined forever. he thinks he's hanging with a cooler crowd now. i really don't care how that works out.

mathew, that's a strange one. he might not actually be on the list. i've been hanging out with beth a lot this weekend.

joel, lies about where he's going and what he's doing. flirts with girls in front of me. told me, joking or not, that he was not my boyfriend. i responded "i know, your a series of one night stands".

i'm so fucked up and hurt right now. it's all crashing down this weekend. i want to go home. i miss my family so much. i miss christina a lot too. i've known christina a long time and never had any of this bull-shit. why can't these boys be even half the person she is. fuck. i know it's not really fair to compare people but i just am at a breaking point.

i'm waiting to be dumped by a person i fell in love with. it's a matter of time.

brie and beth rescued me tonight just like the loftings did the night before. i wish i could fall into a coma for a year. when i woke up everything would have changed and i would be the same.