i felt so anti-social last night. The friends of mathew probably got a terrible first impression of me but i never make good first impressions anyways.

we went to the beach but no one wanted to stay very long because we went so late.

dinner at mathews, left overs and awful pizza. i had left a pissed off message for him the day before but his aunt erased it.

the pirate hottub paryt was awful as well. everyone was glaring and rude and it was totally not my scene so we checked out logan's. this band, budakon, they were so good. i stood at th efront all by myself for thier whole set, everyone took off with out telling me but it didn't matter because this band is so good. everyone came back eventually.

then i came home, drove mathew to my place, so tey could go sleep at his place and ditch out on breakfast this morning, i mean they said they wouldn't but they will.

i want to be able to go study at the roast. fuck. that would be perfect for today. all i want is coffee and polisci text books.

so erin might call but ellen doesn't want her to, and the boys will definitly "forget". nice. actually i think erin will try.

last night was just so awful topped off with the boys taking off even though this place is fucking awful at night. 21 more days until i'm out of this shit hole. into a safe building. i seriously think victoria park in calgary is a safer place to live then here.