it's fucked up but it bugs me a bit that sal likes that girl. i mean it shouldn't. i have a boyfriend, he is in calgary. but this girl is so trashy. i guess i am comparing myself to this girl thinking, was i that trashy and ridiculous. i know i wasn't. i guess i thought he had better taste. i really did invent a lot of sal in my head anyways. it's strange though because i wish my friends were as good of friends as sal. if my friends were doing dumb shit sal would tell me they were not my friends because friends are always there, not most of the time. he was always there.

but i have friends who were just as good or better to me than sal. mainly christina. megan. twyla. sarah.

i miss them.

it's been an hour, i should get breakfast or at least coffee and start studying.