my life is turning to shit before my eyes and i have no control over it.

my friends are sketchy at best and no one is reliable.

i miss christina so much even though i never really see that much of her anyways. i just miss her. and megan. a lot.

i wanted to find an apartment. i looked frantically for one since erin said that we would not be living together. i didn't find one. all that i wrote that for was to explain why murphy and elmo will not be coming back to victoria with me.

i hate how i'm being treated by my friends and because of being ill and catching up school work there no way to just go make new friends. i study all the time and when i'm not i stay in my room reading or watching movies in our basement slum.

i don't want to move back to calgary, victoria isn't what it was when i left. everything just fucking sucks.